Remember the person who wants to trust is the ego.
So you don’t want to do any of those things.
You just want to awaken and you don’t even want to do that.
Just be your Self, be your Self.
Ask yourself,
«Who wants to trust?
Who wants to awaken?»
and you will see it’s all your ego, it’s ‘I’.
‘I’ want to do this, ‘I’ want to do that, ‘I’ want an experience, ‘I’ want this.
All of that has to go.
When all of that has gone, the sun will shine by itself.