You create disharmony and then complain!
When you desire and fear, and identify yourself with your feelings, you create sorrow and bondage.
When you create, with love and wisdom, and remain unattached to your creations, the result is harmony and peace.
But whatever be the condition of your mind, in what way does it reflect on you? It is only your self-identification with your mind that makes you happy or unhappy.
Rebel against your slavery to your mind, see your bonds as self-created and break the chains of attachment and revulsion.
Keep in mind your goal of freedom, until it dawns on you that you are already free, that freedom is not something in the distant future to be earned with painful efforts, but perennially one's own, to be used!
Liberation is not an acquisition but a matter of courage, the courage to believe that you are free already and to act on it.