No matter how many times I tell you this, you're still thinking, thinking, judging, judging, coming to conclusions, trying to work out your life.
You have to let go, totally, absolutely, completely.
You have to let go so completely, that you will feel no body, no mind, no pain, nothing.
That is the only time you will make progress.
Do not think about this.
The thoughts cannot help you.
There are no thoughts that can help you realize the self.
It is only a total completely letting go, giving up.