Life presents you with two options let's say: to go out in the world and make a success of the life and be like other people and be accepted or whatever your projection is about that, or something is calling you to just come into a more meditative life and give more attention to your inner being. There seems to be these two and for awhile and they are living attractions for you. Now you're being aware, but you are neither of them. Now you're being aware, "I am neither of them," and a choice need not be made. I am neither, I simply Am.
And through whatever it is the attention goes to these choices so the movement is pulling toward one of these directions. This is ok, but what is it that is aware of all the directions?
Then it's like looking into a mirror, and you're Here again.