Give up the idea of a journey to Truth, and truth is instantly revealed. Give up this idea that you are near, this concept will take you to another birth, it is itself avoidance. And this silly 'I still don't get it', don't pay any attention to this serpent's voice. Keep quiet. Let's see if you are fit just to remain quiet. Your malignant relationship with mind as master is over. The mind can be used for normal service, but can never help you to be who you are. No heady philosophy is required to know your Self.